Gimme some of that humble pie!

Worship.

Worship is so beautiful before the Lord. It allows a person to admire and adore God as well as encounter Him face to face.

Aaaand it’s also the thing that I get really offended at musically.

Sometimes, when I’m sitting under a worship leader and I don’t like the style that they’re playing. Maybe they’re too loud, too quiet, can’t keep the rhythm, not playing the right kind of song or sing the same chorus a million times. Often enough, I find myself praying, “Lord, come and anoint this person to lead worship.”

And it’s at that point that I need to be slapped in the face.

What that prayer REALLY translates to is: “Lord, come and anoint this person to lead worship the way that I want them to lead worship. Make them sing the way that I want them to sing. Make them sing the song that I want to sing. So, really, Lord, please cater to my needs and my wants so that I can humbly come before your throne to give you my heart, all my worship and surrender myself to you.”

I need a rather large slice of humble pie.

Jesus, help me.

Tiff Tiff

Made this for my friend Tiffany :-)

Made this one for fun ;-)

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He’s not angry?

How ravished is the heart of God by just one glance of my eyes. He’s ravished by just one, weak, voluntary act of love. He’s in love with my small efforts to please Him. He’s in love with my love for Him. He’s love stuck when I come running to Him in my short comings and weakness. He’s love struck over, over and over again when I run to Him first.

Oh, How He’s in love with me.

The past few weeks/months have been challenging for me as far as grasping the love of God. So often I struggle with believing in the love of God.

You see, I had it in my mind that the Lord was burning with anger towards me when I showed up to the prayer room a few minutes late, when I didn’t follow the schedule I planed out, when I didn’t get things done that I said I would get done, when I break promises. I had it in my mind that He wasn’t going to meet me because I was unfaithful with the calling that He gave me. I had a picture in my mind of God burning with anger towards me in my unfaithfulness. So I would sit for a long time in the prayer room asking for forgiveness in hopes that He would come near to me.

I was so consumed with asking God to forgive me over, over and over again and wanting to ‘start over’ that I completely forgot that God is slow to anger. He declares, “The Lord, the Lord God, compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in lovingkindness and truth,” (Exodus 34:6). He delights in showing mercy. It says in Micah 7:18, “He does not retain His anger forever, because He delights in unchanging love (lovingkindness).”

I’ve been sitting so joyless in the prayer room because I was so upset with myself. I’m NOT going to allow the enemy to steal my joy away from me. My God is slow to anger and incredibly rich in mercy. He delights to show mercy. He takes joy in showing me His mercy.

So weather I’m a few minutes late to the prayer room, I don’t stick to my schedule or don’t go to bed on time… God STILL has so much delight, joy and love for me. Nothing can or will ever change this because His mercy is unchanging.

So my motivation to be on time, stick to my schedule and anything else I do in this life will be because I love God. I want everything that I do to be out of love for God. Everything He does is because He is so moved by my heart and my love for Him.

I desire that the reason behind everything I do in my life to be because I’m moved by His heart and His love for me.

He is so good to me… over, over and over again.

 

OneThing09 TONIGHT

In case you didn’t know… OneThing09 begins tonight at 7pm!

click here to register and for directions :-)

And don’t forget… it’s FREE!

Hmmm let’s see

This week has been crazy… let me tell ya.

Due to some rising circumstances with staff members, friends and families… there hasn’t been many people in the prayer room which caused the following…

1 – just a plain weird week
2 – me having to lead the 2nd half of The Cry
3 – me having to lead Tuesday’s intercession set
4 – me realizing that I’m not all that and a bag of chips and that I REALLY need Jesus.
5 – powerful intercession sets that are strewed out of weak hearts and a desperate cry for God to move in power.
6 – not many people being in the prayer room yesterday because John, Gracey and I left in the afternoon to head to Lynchburg to attend The W.A.T.C.H. (a powerful prayer group/ministry at Liberty University)

So it’s just been a weird week…

And this weekend is One Thing 2009 Raleigh/Durham!  It’s FREE so go register and go!  God is going to do some amazing things at this conference.

I have to totally clean the upstairs of the house since I have 2 possibly 3 people staying with me this weekend… and right now it’s not a pretty sight…

I’ve decided that I’m going to try to blog every day this month… we’ll see how that goes… I may not blog this Saturday because I’ll be at One Thing for most of the day :-)

In more recent news and praises… the Lord is faithful and good in every way possible.